Hold on Tight

"The heart that truly loves never forgets"

-Ancient Proverb

Mom made sure made sure my scrunchy matched my outfit, while Dad told me Black Jack stories. When I paint by numbered the living room chairs, Donna was there to save me. Parents are like that, the things they do stick with you. I think about our quirky lives, the Opera House, The Mayan Dude Ranch horse back rides, and O'Neils Lodge fishing trips. Where angst once existed, there is now peace. Habits that once made me crazy, now make me sane. I think back to the posed pictures, and the Boat Club pool, and know that life is good.

Lesson #10: Remain grateful

"BCSSCHIOP"

Play with your food

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There is nothing like knowing where things come from. No artifical flavors, no food coloring, no red dye #8. Just goats milk, just eggs, just pears and honey. Don't get me wrong I've had my fair share of Whataburger's, but you are what you eat. I'd rather pursue products that support people doing what they love. Most soap is made in a factory, but hand made soap is personal. Someone named Laura Stone feeds those goats, she treats them like family, she gets the milk, she makes the soap, she cuts it by hand in her kitchen, wraps it in paper, puts your address on it, and sends it off to you. That means something. I wish it were all as simple as that. In the real world, when I'm not inhaling something before I move to the next task, it's nice to slow down, sit in front of a plate, at a table, and eat what I know. I am not perfect, I still eat string cheese from a plastic packet and buy ramen noodles in a styrofoam cup. My oven is primarily used to heat up DiGiorno's but when I can, I stand for what I love. At the end of the day, when I take a deep breath and settle in next to Roo, just before watching CSI, I thank God and I hope that's good enough.

Lesson #9: Slow down

Hope

"In violence we forget who we are."

-Mary McCarthy

Sometimes I wonder what the world has come to. Who are we as people that we resort to anger? What happened to the Mickey Mouse Club era, the harmless world of Leave it to Beaver? I miss the innocence of being oblivious. I wish we could go back to simplier times. I question now if they ever actually existed. The truth is, the world has evolved, and and in that evolution, out of greed and angst, come criminals and gunmen. I am a member of the Shel Silverstein generation. I will be my own light source. I will find ways to stay simple. I will believe in something greater than myself. As I write this I am hopeful.

Lesson #8: Keep the faith

Fall

The wind in the trees, the crisp air smells like fresh blankets. The dirt looks richer, the green is ripe. I can wrap myself in fluffy comforters and drink warm tea on the porch. For the first time all year I asked to sit in the sun. It's scarf season, I can use my dark nail polish, and wear chunky sweaters with tall boots. I can't wait to fall asleep to the sound of the cold snap. A whole new life to look forward to. Just around the corner are Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Let's celebrate, I'll act like a kid, we can wake up to chilly mornings, make indoor forts, or camp in the great outdoors. I want to make a fire, stare up at the stary night, snuggle in bed and watch movies and feel my cheeks turn pink in the breeze.

Lesson #7: To every thing, there is a season.

Little Black Dog

"A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than he loves himself."

    -Josh Billings

My dog Roo plays well with others. You'll never meet another dog like her. Once a rescue, and run away, now free to run but she stays. Our story starts about 4 years ago. We found each other accidentally, actually she found me. It was love at first sight, I didn't even want a dog, but there she was shivering in her tiny crate at the Town Lake Animal Shelter, my little soul mate. Now on a bad day it's me and Roo against the world. You can say what you want but she's my best friend. If you take everything then please leave my dog. My bug, my buddy, my little dog Roo.

Lesson #6: We all need companionship

Spirit

"There is no such thing as defeat except when it comes from within. As long as a person doesn't admit he is defeated, he is not defeated-he's just a little behind and isn't through fighting."

    - Darrell K. Royal

In Texas, religion and football are everything. My father used to sit on the couch in the ever stylish men’s short shorts (a style he has never abandoned) and say, "Well Sarah, are you ready for some football?" We watched teams like the Cowboys and Oilers. (when they were in Houston not Tennessee) Ok so admittedly I don't really know what's going on during the game. I have no idea what off-sides means, I judge penalties by boos, and I think screaming in public is embarrassing; but I love when my team runs for a touchdown. I love when total strangers give each other high fives. I love watching the replay. In that moment the entire stadium erupts and we all stand for the same thing. In fact I don't just love cheering, I love winning. However as any good fan knows, even the best team will experience loss. We put it out of our mind because losing the game is the worst case scenario, but without the possibility there is no game. More than winning, more than cheering, what I love most is the spirit, the fight, the grit. That's what football is all about. That's what life is all about.

Lesson #5: Respect Adversity

Nothing to be afraid of...

Downtown Austin is fraught with hauntings, stories of murder and mystery, lynching’s, and accidents. We walk by these buildings every day; they are now bars or parking lots where homes once stood, office buildings where we spend our days. We see the names but know nothing about the people. You have to wonder if you've passed each other day in and day out? Are you in their home or are they in your office? On the exterior you read the stories but what you share is greater. You are inexplicably linked, you walk the same floor, you are separated by 1883 only by years. Now that you know where they live, what will you see?

Lesson #4: Face your fears.

Susannah Dickinson Williams Herring

1814-1883

Alamo Survivor

Susannah set up a boarding house to support herself. E.A. Masur says "Hannig was a pioneer blacksmith, a man who really appreciated a good meal. When he sampled Susannah's cabbage, bacon, and cornbread, he just up and married her."In Austin circles, Susannah became somewhat of a celebrity she was very active in relating her experiences in the Alamo and commemorating its heroes whenever called on. Hannig had a marble marker placed on wife Susannah's grave in Austin's Oakwood Cemetery stating: Sacred to the Memory of Susan A. Wife of J.W. Hannig Died Oct. 7, 1883 Aged 68 Years. She is known to haunt the 3rd floor of the Hannig Row Building located on 6th and Brazos.

L.O.V.E

Star light, star bright,

first star I see tonight.
I wish I may, I wish I might,
have the wish, I wish tonight.
We'll make a wish, and do as dreamers do,
and all our wishes,
will come true.

Lesson #3: Good things come to those who wait.

Peace and Quiet

Close your eyes, imagine yourself laying on the floor. It's totally silent, you're completely calm. You're about to be all downward facing dog and angry pigeon or whatever but right now you're relaxed. Your just warm and cozy on your little mat. You breathe in, you breathe out. You realize how physical silence is. You let it all go.

Namaste.

Lesson #2: It's ok to be silent.

The Milk Carton Kid

Hello, my name is Sarah, welcome to my blog. If you're still reading this you now know that this is my coming of age. You should know that I mostly think in pictures. All my words are foreign. I live everything in my head at least once before it happens. If I am in fact, in a movie about my life, then I must be the narrator, except I have no idea what's going to happen next. Lately I have this irrational fear that I'll forget to engage. I'll disappear because I sat behind a desk at work and drove my car to the store, and came home to watch CSI with my dog.

Lesson #1: You cannot travel the path until you have become the path itself.